As promised here is my goals for the next 30 days, but first as I was sitting at the laundry mat I got a feeling and just starting writing...sometimes I do my best writing there... I don't understand....but here is a part of what I wrote...promise I won't share the full FOUR pages!! :-)
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7-8-12
Well another 2 months has come and went (since I wrote in my journal) ~ as well as another birthday! Some days I just wonder if I'm meant to be just going through the motions or if I'm meant for something so much greater and so much better. But if I don't change my attitude or my life then do I really deserve something better? I mean I've had a bad 18 months but why am I letting that define me? Some people think I need to go seek help but how can I get help from someone that doesn't know what I'm going through? My mom said drugs are wonderful ~ but I don't want feel drugs are going to make a difference or even make Jane and William come back! That's all I want! I want my my normal life back! I want my motivation (which was Jane) back! I want my life back!
Today is the day I will try my best to start living for me! I have out line my work out plan for the next 30 days! My morning work outs to my evening work outs! My food journal or plan is next! I need to get my food in check and I will need to start getting healthy and learn to handle my stress a lot better. Sitting at home is not cutting it anymore. I'm not setting a weight loss goal only because I know if I focus on the healthy things that the weight will naturally come off!
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WOW... can't believe I just shared my thoughts and feelings....people that know me really well, know that a lot of what I just wrote is personal. But maybe it's time to get the truth out there....maybe this is what I need to keep me on track.... this way it's made public and now I know I have others holding me accountable for my actions. I don't know what it honestly means other than I know someone else is out there going through the same thing and maybe they will find some motivation or help knowing someone else feels their pain and is walking their same path.
So my goal and my "schedule" is as follows and yes it may change a little bit, but I have 37 work outs planned for the next 30 days (starting Monday).... along with my 30 day water challenge that my friend challenged me too! :-O (this is just drinking water for the next 30 days... no tea, no soda no NOTHING other than the God given H2O!)
Monday: 5am walk on my treadmill (at least 2 miles)
6pm ZUMBA
Tuesday: 5am walk on my treadmill (at least 2 miles)
6pm coaching and maybe a class after (coaching is the easy part not much activity)
Wednesday: 5:30am cyclates (this is 30 minutes Cycling and 30 minutes Pilate's)
6pm ZUMBA
Thursday: 5am walk on my treadmill (at least 2 miles)
6pm coaching and maybe a class after (with her mom)
Friday: 5:30 Cyclates (same as above)
PM.... I'M OFF!!!!! :-)
Saturday: 9am ZUMBA
Sunday: OFF so that means POOL TIME!!!!!! (gotta start dreaming of my bikini!)
Yes, some may say this is too much, but honestly..... I see a lot of fun in this schedule (that's the Zumba and maybe watching a movie while on my treadmill!). The only class or activity that I see is going to be out of my comfort zone is the Cyclelates. Not only b/c I'm not a fan of cycling.... (only b/c do fluffy people cycle?!?!?) but Pilate's....and having the feeling that I am going to be the only FAT person in exercise class! That is always my biggest fear! But, the only way to get to my goal of being healthy and happy is MAKING THE FIRST STEP! So tomorrow.... I will make MY FIRST STEP!!!
WISH ME LUCK!
Kimberly
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