Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock. - Unknown

As I sit here with MILLIONS of things to do (basketball practice plans, TBall game, snacks for TBall, carry in for my bible study tomorrow, walk my dog, get some work done, work on my basketball play book, clean my house, make dinner and the list goes on and on...oh yeah, WORK OUT or RUN too!), I feel it's best to get back to my routine.  (Hahahaha, yep, I know WHAT ROUTINE!)  I have had 2 weeks of eating whatever I want and drinking whatever I want and didn't hold myself accountable for ANY of it.  So I didn't go to the one thing in my life that has been constant to hold me accountable.  So this Saturday I'm back to Weight Watchers to face the numbers and to get back on track.  I had a LONG and much needed talk with my old weight watcher leader and she had the spark to light my fire and now I'm here.  But as I was thinking of what I needed to say to help you or what I wanted to say I just couldn't come up with anything other than this..... Is your "motivation" still your motivation? 

I have a lot of "support" from people but right now they aren't my motivation.  (no offense) It isn't their fault that they can't motivate me or I can't spark off their energy.  I just need something different.  I need more... I need change.  But how do you know when you need that change?  How do you find what you need?  How?  I think for me it wasn't easy....... I still every now and then would talk to my old weight watcher leader when I hit the big mile stones, and she would always be proud, but I think she knew I needed more.  I need that push, I need to be held accountable more than I'm holding myself accountable.  When I was living in Maryland I did everything by the books.  I mean EVERYTHING!  The weight was coming off and I mean quickly.  But I have to take into account I worked ALL the time and I would come home and make a healthy dinner and then go to bed and get up and do it all over again.  So my day was always the same and weighing in on Sunday always made me watch what I ate on Saturdays which I KNOW helped me a great deal.  But do you need to change your motivator to help you through this rough spot in your journey?  Think about it.... I know I had to...we all change and our needs change.  So why not change what isn't working for you that moment? 

I hope everyone is safe and sound after that storm and you have a wonderful evening!
Kimberly

Monday, June 20, 2011

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going!

Well, if it was just that easy!!!  I mean really.  Then we would all be skinny, I'm telling ya! 

I sure hope everyone had a wonderful week last week, it's been a crazy yet good one for me.  But these 2 weeks worth of birthday celebrations are going to run its course for me, and to think my birthday isn't until the 25th!!!  WOWSERS!  That just mean ONE more week.......

But I've had not only a lack of "habit" but I have also going through a lack of motivation!  Maybe because I am getting older, or maybe it's because I always put someone else first.  Or that I don't and can't say "NO".  I mean, if I don't do something then who is going to do it?  I love kids, I love helping make this world better, so SURE I WILL HELP!  But I think this week (I'm off Wednesday on for my birthday) I am going to spend a lot of time with ME!  Doing what I want (other than going to see Cars 2 in 3-D with my 3 year old nephew!).  I want to hang at the pool.... I want to finish moving in..... I want to CLEAN MY PLACE!  So maybe the next 5 days are about me!  I also am taking a big step and getting baptized at church on Sunday!  I'm very excited and scared.  But ready for what GOD has in my future!  :-) 

So how do we not only stay motivated to start but keeping the habit up?  I tend to have a problem with the habit.  I can always find something better to do...or someone else can usually find something better for me to do.  But whatever or however we started we need to find that motivation and keep going.  I know after my first birthday week, I think it's time to get back on the band wagon!  So tonight I will start the running again.  I'm not going to promise weighing in Saturday, but I promise to go.  So I will keep you posted! 

But let's get the motivation back in and the habit will just fall into place.  We are worth this!  I am worth this!

Kimberly

Monday, June 13, 2011

"Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude." Thomas Jefferson

Well AMEN to this quote!  And I think with the little blogs that I have posted I think we all know the attitude I have had lately.  :-(  But it has got me thinking about a lot of things.  What do I want out of life?  Where do I want my life to go?  Who do I want with me when I walk through life?  How do I want to walk through life?

I think I have been walking through life all wrong.  I have had the WRONG attitude.  (yeah I know SURPRISE SURPRISE!)  But seriously, when I want things I want them NOW.  I have no patience and HATE waiting!  So for me to "wait" for things to happen or "good things come to those who wait"....yeah those don't sit well for me.  I feel I get what I want out of life because I work hard for it and I prepare myself for it, and I also feel like I make things happen. 

But sometimes I think that me being inpatient also ruins what GOD has planned for me.  And we all know what happens when we make our on plans when GOD has other plans for us.  We always take the harder road...... And being inpatient I have found that sometimes better things were out there if I only waited.  And without going tooo far into my personal life I could point this out in several different cases, but again I won't!    But I think those are lessons well learned.  I feel that those lessons have made me the person I am today.  But can't I get more out of life?  Am I on the road that I'm supposed to be on?  (yes, since I went to a catholic wedding Saturday I have been questioning A LOT of things......and this has got me thinking!)

As I sit here and I'm writing what's in my heart and head, I'm thinking this no longer goes with my quote.  :-(  So either I press on or I get back to the quote.......But several other quotes were about attitudes, and I think attitude has a lot to do with our success and our failures.  Attitudes also keep us either in that success or that failure.  If we succeed and we keep the attitude alive and then we hit a rock do we go to the dark side of failure or do we just step over it and keep on the success path?  I know I am guilty of letting that rock grow and get bigger right in front of my eyes instead of just stepping over it and keeping the momentum up.  It's easier for me to be Debbie Downer than it is to be Cheerful Cathy! 

So I leave this with you.... surround yourself with LOTs of Cheerful Cathy's and let's make this week successful!  :-)

Have a great day!
Kimberly

Monday, June 6, 2011

“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.” - Tom Krause

Happy Monday........

Today, I totally feel like a disappointment so I wanted to figure out what I was going to say, not that I am usually at a loss for words, but the weekend I had I am TOTALLY at a loss for words.  I hear a lot of people that love reading my blog and some even say that they totally understand and I guess that is why I am writing this. 

We all fail or so we think.  I don't deal well with failure and I try and try until I have perfected whatever it is.  But sometimes in life you can try so hard at something and still fail and I guess that is what I have problems with.  I HATE FAILING!  My weekend kind of started off rocky... I stepped on the scale and gained TWO pounds.  I even ran 2 miles before I weighed in on Friday night!  I only ate popcorn for supper, I mean why did I gain.  Well, we all know why I gained....what did I do the 2 weeks before (I missed last week due to Gus Macker).  1 day of being good doesn't make up for the other 13 days of not totally being bad!!!  So I just sat down and pondered why and how I could have failed myself and fell off the wagon again.  I fall off too much, why can't I succeed in staying on?  It should be so easy.... by gosh, there are a lot of people that can do and then there is ME..... falling off every other stinkin' day it seems.  :-(  Can we say FAILURE?  Then I went to go shopping for my secret Birthday Trip and I went to Kohl's and grabbed a CUTE outfit in the size that NORMALLY fits, and just bought it.... I mean it was smoking!  Then I went to Old Navy bought another outfit, but they didn't have my size so I bought a size smaller THINKING in 2 weeks it will fit!!!!!  Then I had to go to Target to get somethings and found this other cute sun dress and bought the size I figured would fit or again I hoped it would fit!!!!  (I think you see where I'm going!)  Well, I was supposed to go to a birthday party but this guy that we have been off and on for the past 2 or 3 months (yeah the start of the conversation.... the BIG FAILURE that I really can't let go) went so I figured it's best that I not go because I knew what would happen! I missed a good time, but I had a choice to make!  Then Sunday I got up with NO HANG OVER, and went to Church and then had a busy day....well I got my clothes out that I bought the day before to make sure they fit for my trip and well...let's take it by Store....

Kohl's:
CUTE button down top.... well it fits, but a little snug.....
Capri's..... Smokin' but yeah, not getting into them at the moment!
Necklace....no good unless I can fit into the shirt!  :-(

Old Navy:
Shirts (purple and green) FIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shorts (yes the size smaller) well they ALMOST fit..... they at least zip and button up....but anyway to save you from the picture of grossness I won't go further.... :-(  Think they will fit in 2 weeks?  I doubt it too!

Target:
Black sundress: AMAZING...... you can tell all the weight I have lost.  FINALLY....

So I have ONE outfit that fits for my Birthday Vacation!!!!  YEAH! 

But seriously thinking about "failure" and everyone has a different definition and depending on the mood and the day it changes.  Today I feel like a failure.  I just got an email from a friend and he was telling me how I didn't fail in the relationship with this gentleman.... the gentleman failed in the relationship.  I'm not going to change who I am to make things work.  I am who I am and that is what it is.  The sooner I come to realize that the happier I will be.  So why can't we get over the failures in our life?  Why do we sit and dwell?  I sure don't know and NEVER claim to have all the answers, but when I figure this out I will let you know! 

Back to the Quote..... "There are no Failures - just experiences and your reactions to them."  How are you going to react? 

I got back on the wagon of watching what I eat, running and trying to get a personal trainer and moving on in life.  I'm ready to be at my goal, but I also know this is a climb.... and I have to move mountains and I'm going to get there.  I know I am!!!  I have a great support system and weeded out the bad.  I'm ready!  Are you?

Kimberly

Thursday, June 2, 2011

You will never "find" time for anything. If you want time, you must make it. - Charles Bruxton

Good afternoon... it's been a while and yes, I know I have a lot to do and this quote fits the "Tude" I'm in today...... well the "Tude" for the week.  :-)

Is it funny how "TOMORROW" never comes?  I mean really... I'm still waiting...and I go to bed thinking I am going to have MORE time and MORE energy and life is just going to be different.  For SOME reason it's not and I just seem to never get ahead in life. 

Let's look at my plate.... I am now coaching for a traveling basketball team (YEAH ME!!!  I'm excited), I will be coaching at the YMCA again, I coach T-Ball, I help my boss with his softball and baseball teams, I have a SPOILED Dog that is VERY high maintenance, I try to have a social life, I try to have a clean apartment, go to the laundry mat once a week, my nephew has baseball games that I TRY to go to, I work a lot, I TRY to sleep, I am a Chamber Ambassador, I'm in Women's Networking, I am joining ABWA (American Business Women's Association) , Um..... I'm getting divorced, and planning my birthday trip.  I think that sums up my week.... but I'm sure I left SOMETHING out... like friends and family and all that.........

But, if I keep putting things off will they ever get done?  Did you notice I had NO exercise in that list of "to do's"?  I did run 2 miles yesterday and by the looks of life, I may have to put off my run until TOMORROW....but will I run tomorrow?  I have a T-Ball game tomorrow..... then Weight watchers on Saturday, so I'm back to step one, WHEN am I going to get my exercise in?  I have to figure out how to balance my busy schedule, I got me into this "mess" I will get me out.  I will get everything done and I will be in bed at a half way decent time!!!!  (I hope).  I don't know how women with kids do this!  I don't have kids, I don't have a boy friend, and my husband is 888 miles away and I'm sure not missing me!  So how do you do it?  I was looking at my calendar for the month and WOW..... when will I have "Kim Time"?  Anyone that knows me knows I love my "Kim Time".  :-)  I get a lot of thinking done and a lot of goals mapped out and organization!  Kind of dangerous I know, but I love it! 

So all in all...what is important to you?  Yes, I love running and I love being active and not being home, but I know to keep me grounded and working my way to my goals I have to find the time to stay home and unwind, I have to find the time to run!  I know there are 24 hours in a day.... It's what WE do with it, are you going to waste it complaining there isn't enough time?  Or are you going to take every minute that GOD gives you and use to to better yourself and this world we all share?  I'm working towards making this world a better and skinnier place...... What are you making time for?

Have a great day!
Kimberly