My Daughter

Ok, yes I know it's been a while... and yes I know you have been sitting waiting very patiently for a new and outstanding blog...but I don't think I'm going to have one today. 

A little back ground... I coached college basketball and high school basketball.  Some of you know basketball is my life and my passion and everything I tend to live for....... so when I coach I tend to adopt the girls as my own.  Well if you count how many I still stay in contact with unfortunately it's not that many....but one that I still talk to (Not as much as I should) every now and then was ALWAYS like my daughter.  Wait she WAS my daughter.  Every time I had to take her to the hospital when she was sick or hurt she kept telling them I was her mom!  Well anytime a player would get sick or hurt I was the one to take them to the doctor....so the nurses saw me A LOT!  So yeah, I'm sure you know where this is going......one day I told her you tell them I'm your mom you are running!  Well, she was on her best behavior and then she called me GRANDMA!  Oh I sooo wanted to hurt her!!!  So I from here on out LOVED "MOM"....... Things happened with that job and so we parted ways and lost touch until I lived in Chicago and she played in Chicago!  We were back to our mother daughter relationship in no time..... UGHHHH KIDS!  :-)  So when I moved to Maryland we still sent text messages and when I took my dad and his friends to a Greenbay vs Bears game in Chicago I got to see her.  She was happy and loving life and all that worry was for NOTHING!  She had it all.  I was such a proud mom!  Well I don't know if you remember a couple weeks back, but at the Indy State Fair the stage fell on some Sugarland fans and 5 were killed instantly and 40 were injured.....well her girlfriend was killed and my player was injured.  I feel my world was shattered.... I had so many thought going through my head..... I was in Chicago a couple weeks sooner and I didn't make time to see her and meet her girlfriend.  I was "too busy", but really, she is my kid....how was I too busy to see my kid and to meet the love of her life that was making her soo happy?  I am regretting not spending the time or making the time for my daughter...... really what's more important than family?  I am getting updates on her condition, she just got released to go back to Chicago on Monday and I hear she is doing a lot better.  I am saddened that I have not been able to talk to her and hear her voice, but I pray everyday for her recovery and for her heart to be healed.  She really means the world to me and someday I will have a daughter of my own and I hope and pray she is exactly like Alisha! 

I love you kid and wish you a speedy recovery! 
Coach

WOW... What's your price on your price tag?

I was reading my friends facebook page and you know you see all this "stuff" and some is BLAH BLAH BLAH or some is just not worth reading so I try to skim through and if it's good I feel it will jump out and say "READ ME"..... well this did:

If you are not being treated with love and respect, check your price tag.  Perhaps you have marked yourself down.  It’s YOU who tells people what you’re worth by what you accept.  Get off the clearance rack and get behind the glass where they keep the valuables!  Bottom line: Value yourself more!  If you don’t, no one else will!  Skip the nose in the air arrogance, it’s not pretty, but hold your head up and smile. 

Now everyone can agree that we as women tend to sell ourselves short!  I know for me, I find "love" in all the wrong places.  I think I'm in "love" but really I'm no where close.  I tend to go with the first dude that gives me attention and we all know how that relationship is going to end.  Right now, I have a couple "friends" that I'm talking to and I keep saying if I can somehow make them ONE guy I would be in heaven for the rest of my life.  I can talk with each guy for HOURS and still have something to say or talk about and we could just smile, laugh and have a good time....they are each totally different in their own ways, but still makes me feel amazing and lucky to have them in my life.  Now the impatient person that I am would like to rush things a long and ask for more....but right now it's nice to sit back and raise my price!  I deserve the best and I deserve to be treated with respect!  

But just thought you would enjoy that, or I hope you do as much as I do!

Kimberly  

We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give. - W. Churchill

I send quotes to a "friend" (which is another story for another day!) and he sends them off to the high school basketball girls that he works with and kind of mentors.  So last week I sent this quote to him and I read it and thought "WOW, this really is good".  As you can see I'm using it as a quote almost a week and a half later and that's only because HE sent it back to ME today!  He said that he saw this quote this morning and liked it and thought of me.  But for some reason when I read it this morning it seemed to hit more than when I found it and sent it to him!  It could be that I have a lot on my plate and mind, or it could be that he knows that I need motivation just like everyone else. 

This quote for me could go a couple different ways!  I tend to make a life on what I give... I give everything I have to help make everyone else's life better.  I coach, I network, I babysit, I do it all!  I give give give and honestly wouldn't have it any other way.  But my life wasn't always like this and that is what is the hard part....my mom and I were driving home from a friends house the other day and she asked me "what do you miss most about being married" and I don't know if I really had an answer for her but it got me thinking.  She then added "not like you guys lived the married life and communicated and all"....which really got me thinking about things because in all honesty we really almost lived like roommates it felt like sometimes!  So I thought long and hard for a good answer and the only one I honestly could come up with is "I miss doing the little things for someone".  I used to bake muffins and cookies for my husband to take to work, I miss cooking for someone other than myself (no, we didn't even eat dinner together!).  I miss doing the little things that make life worth living!  And I never expected anything in return, not that I would have gotten anything from him.  Then she proceeds to tell me that since I have been back home I have done a complete change in my life.  I am much more happier, I'm more confident, I am more outgoing and the list went on and on.  Which when I was in Maryland I wasn't the happiest person, I wasn't the most positive person and I sure wasn't active or allowed to be active in anything!  And I don't take the credit for any of changes that I made..... it sure took me a couple months to even begin to look at life differently.  I give the credit to God for not allowing me to give up when life (which was a thought more than once!) was beyond hard and not worth living at times, but also the support that I got from my friends and family.  They stuck it out with me, they knew I wasn't happy and they knew I wasn't myself.....but they were there for me and they encouraged me and gave me the words I needed to hear to get me through that day or that week!  Because of them I get to give myself, my dreams, and my knowledge to help young kids learn and love basketball and life the way I do! 

So can you do me a favor today...... do something "little" today either for a friend, a family member or your spouse!  And when I say this I don't mean you should expect something in return from them..... just make their day! 
Kimberly

Accept what you can't change, change what you can't accept

A friend sent me this quote Sunday when I was having a VERY BAD day!  It seemed like everything I did and everything I said just either was taken wrong or I heard wrong.  So I found a quote and sent one to her because she wasn't having such a good weekend and her quote I sent was......."Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't care and those you care don't mind".  Well if that was the case we would all be in trouble I bet!  :-)  But personally I think these quotes relate to everyone's lives in some way shape or form. 

Anyway..... "Accept the things you can't change".  Well for starters what is it that I can't change?  What is it that I CAN change?  What can I accept?  This quote could be broken down in many ways of course....but the things I can not change are someones feelings toward me.  They either like me or they don't.  They either want to be friends or they don't.  I am who I am because of the walk and journey I have been on and the fires I have walked through made me the strong person that I am....take me or leave me.  I can't change the debt ceiling "stuff" nor do I even want to tackle it honestly, I can't change the sick or the poor.... so I guess I better accept it!  But the things I can't accept like me being "fluffy", me being busy, me being surly and crabby....now those things I can change.  And only I can change those.  I can't depend on you to change them I can't depend on the neighbor or anyone else.... I have to be the one to change the things that I personally can't accept.  So this week, after a not so good doctor's appointment I will be having surgery in a couple weeks so time to prepare myself for TOTALLY no working out for 6 weeks!  I got back on the plan and yes I even ran a mile and a half!  ;-)  I can also change the support and help that I receive from others.  People have been there and done this before I have..... I feel they are going to be the ones that get me through this!  I have a couple great WW leaders and amazing supporters in my meetings that will give me the added push and support I will need to stay on track as I heal and get back to running and training for my marathon!!!! 

I hope everyone has a wonderful day and remember accept the things you can't change, but change the things you can't accept!!!!
Kimberly

Ninety percent of the game is half mental. - Yogi Berra

Hello, it's been a while..... I feel I need to introduce myself again!  ;-)  Sorry, I have been doing some traveling for work and some things have been thrown on the plate that had to be dealt with and unfortunately the blogging was on the back burner!  I'm hoping life will settle down!  I hope in the mean time everyone has been doing better than I have. 

I send quotes to a friend and he sends them to the high school basketball players that he helps during the summer and I sent this quote to him to send the girls....then I got to thinking how true this quote is!  I mean instead of game (which I think life is a game) you could put ANYTHING in there...... It is always going to be true.  If you have the wrong mindset you are going to fail, if you have the right one you will succeed, that is just the way it is.  And this week against poplular belief to the week that I have had I am back to tracking....and yes I tracked my 28 points plus blizzard..... YEP you read that right TWENTY EIGHT POINTS PLUS!!!  :-(  Wasn't proud, but I wanted it and I ate it so I tracked it! 

So my challenge for this week is that I track everything and let my mind stay in the mind set that if I track, I can stay on plan.  That way when I stay on plan I stay on track and I stay successful!  I agree, this life style change will be ALL MENTAL!  ;-)

Have a great day!
Kimberly

Worry is a misuse of imagination. - Dan Zadra

Well, I had to go for the motivational quote of the day...... I just couldn't find my own motivation for some reason!!!! 

As I sit here eating lunch (no I won't tell you what I'm eating, you shall keep reading and find out why) trying to sum up and find some motivation to share, but again one of those days....I'm beginning to think it's just the MONTH!  I finally went to the specialist for my broken toe that I broke doing the Turkey Run (yes it was thanksgiving and yes I will do the math EIGHT MONTHS ago) and he had me in a "special shoe"....well we all know it wasn't special and it wasn't cute!  I had no special powers, no special tricks so there was NOTHING special about it!  I still don't understand why it's called a "special shoe".... the only thing it did was make my shins hurt (aka yes, I got my shin splints back!) as well as make my ankle swell and my foot swell....we won't go there with shoot pain in my toe!  :-(  So I called and he thought I was in the boot not the shoe, so i went back in today and now I have THE BOOT!  Well, the verdict on this one is still up in the air.  It hurts my toe a lot more but he hopes it will help with the shin splints and the swelling..... HELLO it's the BROKEN TOE I'm worried about!!!!!  PLUS, I go to Chicago on Wednesday so you all know that means a lot of walking!  Plus I used to live there so lots more to see all my friends while I'm not in the conference and stuffing my face on the good eats that they will be serving.... guess I better pack something healthy!! 

But anyway.... back to the point of this blog..... I think it's back to the basics for me.  The plan works, and I know it does....how else could I have lost the 60 pounds?  I mean I know how to make it work, track, activity (well...maybe not just yet) and better decisions!  The plan is easy to follow and I'm allowed what I want why can't I learn self control and moderation!???  That is the key to losing weight period!  It's about NOT finishing your plate if you are full.....NOT going after that second donut if you are still hungry..... NOT putting the extra toppings on FAT FREE yogurt!  I can do this... I have done this.... I will get back on.  Not tomorrow either!  Today.... NOW! 

I hope you have a wonderful day and I hope your "MONTH" is better than me..... :-) 
Kimberly

No Title..........I'm just here....where are you?

As I have been going through my week, which went really quick for some reason, I kept saying I have to blog, I have to blog... I HAVE TO BLOG.  But nothing really jumped out at me this week as far as ONE thought or ONE idea.  If your week was anything like mine you would understand.  I mean seriously.  I think I did everything this week, but what I should have done.....I'm going to go to weight watchers tomorrow and you know what...I'm going to step on the scale and I expect a gain.... why you say.... well I honestly didn't do anything to accomplish my weight lose goal for the week.  I mean seriously NOTHING.  I was aware of what I was eating, and I never really finished my plate and I only ate out TWICE (so that is good in of it's self). 

But the week has been crazy.  I still can't figure out why I don't have Internet at home.... I am working on a playbook for my traveling basketball team, I'm trying to spend time with my dog that feels neglected and unloved (per the vet!), I'm working, coaching TBall, and I think that MIGHT be all...but I'm sure I'm forgetting something....oh yeah, I babysat my 2 younger nephews.... and you know I love them, but really kids aren't for me, let alone I could NOT be a single parent (I now have a greater love for you if you are!). 

But anyway..... I wanted to accomplish good things this week, I wanted to set my goals and get back on the wagon..... guess what I didn't do?  Yep, I set myself up for failure!  I think it's time to clean the fridge and cabinets and go back to the basics.  I need to relearn what I'm doing and why I'm doing it.... I was talking to a friend and she is having the same issues and I was thinking WOW... I lost a lot of weight in a year and I really can't lose sight of that, but why was I successful back then and why am I not now?  What is different?  (well that is an easy answer STRESS!!!)  How do I get back to where I was when I was losing the weight and when I was successful?  Well, I think it's time to journal every night....set weekly goals, and TRACK.  I had the life in Maryland, okay maybe I really didn't....but I lost the weight!  I would get up and walk on my treadmill, make breakfast, go to work, come home, make supper, and watch TV and go to bed.  If you are following me that is NOT what I do today.  I don't even know where I live anymore (I guess that is why my dog feels unloved too...... )   See it's all coming together now!  How does a busy person stay focused when you are in EVERYTHING (oh yeah, I joined a new club that eats out once a month too!) and love doing everything you are doing.  Yes, I know I am tooo busy and yes I know I need to learn to say no, but when you are passionate about what you do, how can you say no? 

I want to know what everyone else does.... I need help..... email me (kimc1907@gmail.com ) on how you juggle your life... I really want to know, I am reaching out for help! 

I hope you all have a safe weekend and promise I will blog more...that shall be on my list of things that doesn't get cut!  ;-)
Kimberly

Don’t be discouraged. It’s often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock. - Unknown

As I sit here with MILLIONS of things to do (basketball practice plans, TBall game, snacks for TBall, carry in for my bible study tomorrow, walk my dog, get some work done, work on my basketball play book, clean my house, make dinner and the list goes on and on...oh yeah, WORK OUT or RUN too!), I feel it's best to get back to my routine.  (Hahahaha, yep, I know WHAT ROUTINE!)  I have had 2 weeks of eating whatever I want and drinking whatever I want and didn't hold myself accountable for ANY of it.  So I didn't go to the one thing in my life that has been constant to hold me accountable.  So this Saturday I'm back to Weight Watchers to face the numbers and to get back on track.  I had a LONG and much needed talk with my old weight watcher leader and she had the spark to light my fire and now I'm here.  But as I was thinking of what I needed to say to help you or what I wanted to say I just couldn't come up with anything other than this..... Is your "motivation" still your motivation? 

I have a lot of "support" from people but right now they aren't my motivation.  (no offense) It isn't their fault that they can't motivate me or I can't spark off their energy.  I just need something different.  I need more... I need change.  But how do you know when you need that change?  How do you find what you need?  How?  I think for me it wasn't easy....... I still every now and then would talk to my old weight watcher leader when I hit the big mile stones, and she would always be proud, but I think she knew I needed more.  I need that push, I need to be held accountable more than I'm holding myself accountable.  When I was living in Maryland I did everything by the books.  I mean EVERYTHING!  The weight was coming off and I mean quickly.  But I have to take into account I worked ALL the time and I would come home and make a healthy dinner and then go to bed and get up and do it all over again.  So my day was always the same and weighing in on Sunday always made me watch what I ate on Saturdays which I KNOW helped me a great deal.  But do you need to change your motivator to help you through this rough spot in your journey?  Think about it.... I know I had to...we all change and our needs change.  So why not change what isn't working for you that moment? 

I hope everyone is safe and sound after that storm and you have a wonderful evening!
Kimberly

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going!

Well, if it was just that easy!!!  I mean really.  Then we would all be skinny, I'm telling ya! 

I sure hope everyone had a wonderful week last week, it's been a crazy yet good one for me.  But these 2 weeks worth of birthday celebrations are going to run its course for me, and to think my birthday isn't until the 25th!!!  WOWSERS!  That just mean ONE more week.......

But I've had not only a lack of "habit" but I have also going through a lack of motivation!  Maybe because I am getting older, or maybe it's because I always put someone else first.  Or that I don't and can't say "NO".  I mean, if I don't do something then who is going to do it?  I love kids, I love helping make this world better, so SURE I WILL HELP!  But I think this week (I'm off Wednesday on for my birthday) I am going to spend a lot of time with ME!  Doing what I want (other than going to see Cars 2 in 3-D with my 3 year old nephew!).  I want to hang at the pool.... I want to finish moving in..... I want to CLEAN MY PLACE!  So maybe the next 5 days are about me!  I also am taking a big step and getting baptized at church on Sunday!  I'm very excited and scared.  But ready for what GOD has in my future!  :-) 

So how do we not only stay motivated to start but keeping the habit up?  I tend to have a problem with the habit.  I can always find something better to do...or someone else can usually find something better for me to do.  But whatever or however we started we need to find that motivation and keep going.  I know after my first birthday week, I think it's time to get back on the band wagon!  So tonight I will start the running again.  I'm not going to promise weighing in Saturday, but I promise to go.  So I will keep you posted! 

But let's get the motivation back in and the habit will just fall into place.  We are worth this!  I am worth this!

Kimberly

"Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude." Thomas Jefferson

Well AMEN to this quote!  And I think with the little blogs that I have posted I think we all know the attitude I have had lately.  :-(  But it has got me thinking about a lot of things.  What do I want out of life?  Where do I want my life to go?  Who do I want with me when I walk through life?  How do I want to walk through life?

I think I have been walking through life all wrong.  I have had the WRONG attitude.  (yeah I know SURPRISE SURPRISE!)  But seriously, when I want things I want them NOW.  I have no patience and HATE waiting!  So for me to "wait" for things to happen or "good things come to those who wait"....yeah those don't sit well for me.  I feel I get what I want out of life because I work hard for it and I prepare myself for it, and I also feel like I make things happen. 

But sometimes I think that me being inpatient also ruins what GOD has planned for me.  And we all know what happens when we make our on plans when GOD has other plans for us.  We always take the harder road...... And being inpatient I have found that sometimes better things were out there if I only waited.  And without going tooo far into my personal life I could point this out in several different cases, but again I won't!    But I think those are lessons well learned.  I feel that those lessons have made me the person I am today.  But can't I get more out of life?  Am I on the road that I'm supposed to be on?  (yes, since I went to a catholic wedding Saturday I have been questioning A LOT of things......and this has got me thinking!)

As I sit here and I'm writing what's in my heart and head, I'm thinking this no longer goes with my quote.  :-(  So either I press on or I get back to the quote.......But several other quotes were about attitudes, and I think attitude has a lot to do with our success and our failures.  Attitudes also keep us either in that success or that failure.  If we succeed and we keep the attitude alive and then we hit a rock do we go to the dark side of failure or do we just step over it and keep on the success path?  I know I am guilty of letting that rock grow and get bigger right in front of my eyes instead of just stepping over it and keeping the momentum up.  It's easier for me to be Debbie Downer than it is to be Cheerful Cathy! 

So I leave this with you.... surround yourself with LOTs of Cheerful Cathy's and let's make this week successful!  :-)

Have a great day!
Kimberly

“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.” - Tom Krause

Happy Monday........

Today, I totally feel like a disappointment so I wanted to figure out what I was going to say, not that I am usually at a loss for words, but the weekend I had I am TOTALLY at a loss for words.  I hear a lot of people that love reading my blog and some even say that they totally understand and I guess that is why I am writing this. 

We all fail or so we think.  I don't deal well with failure and I try and try until I have perfected whatever it is.  But sometimes in life you can try so hard at something and still fail and I guess that is what I have problems with.  I HATE FAILING!  My weekend kind of started off rocky... I stepped on the scale and gained TWO pounds.  I even ran 2 miles before I weighed in on Friday night!  I only ate popcorn for supper, I mean why did I gain.  Well, we all know why I gained....what did I do the 2 weeks before (I missed last week due to Gus Macker).  1 day of being good doesn't make up for the other 13 days of not totally being bad!!!  So I just sat down and pondered why and how I could have failed myself and fell off the wagon again.  I fall off too much, why can't I succeed in staying on?  It should be so easy.... by gosh, there are a lot of people that can do and then there is ME..... falling off every other stinkin' day it seems.  :-(  Can we say FAILURE?  Then I went to go shopping for my secret Birthday Trip and I went to Kohl's and grabbed a CUTE outfit in the size that NORMALLY fits, and just bought it.... I mean it was smoking!  Then I went to Old Navy bought another outfit, but they didn't have my size so I bought a size smaller THINKING in 2 weeks it will fit!!!!!  Then I had to go to Target to get somethings and found this other cute sun dress and bought the size I figured would fit or again I hoped it would fit!!!!  (I think you see where I'm going!)  Well, I was supposed to go to a birthday party but this guy that we have been off and on for the past 2 or 3 months (yeah the start of the conversation.... the BIG FAILURE that I really can't let go) went so I figured it's best that I not go because I knew what would happen! I missed a good time, but I had a choice to make!  Then Sunday I got up with NO HANG OVER, and went to Church and then had a busy day....well I got my clothes out that I bought the day before to make sure they fit for my trip and well...let's take it by Store....

Kohl's:
CUTE button down top.... well it fits, but a little snug.....
Capri's..... Smokin' but yeah, not getting into them at the moment!
Necklace....no good unless I can fit into the shirt!  :-(

Old Navy:
Shirts (purple and green) FIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Shorts (yes the size smaller) well they ALMOST fit..... they at least zip and button up....but anyway to save you from the picture of grossness I won't go further.... :-(  Think they will fit in 2 weeks?  I doubt it too!

Target:
Black sundress: AMAZING...... you can tell all the weight I have lost.  FINALLY....

So I have ONE outfit that fits for my Birthday Vacation!!!!  YEAH! 

But seriously thinking about "failure" and everyone has a different definition and depending on the mood and the day it changes.  Today I feel like a failure.  I just got an email from a friend and he was telling me how I didn't fail in the relationship with this gentleman.... the gentleman failed in the relationship.  I'm not going to change who I am to make things work.  I am who I am and that is what it is.  The sooner I come to realize that the happier I will be.  So why can't we get over the failures in our life?  Why do we sit and dwell?  I sure don't know and NEVER claim to have all the answers, but when I figure this out I will let you know! 

Back to the Quote..... "There are no Failures - just experiences and your reactions to them."  How are you going to react? 

I got back on the wagon of watching what I eat, running and trying to get a personal trainer and moving on in life.  I'm ready to be at my goal, but I also know this is a climb.... and I have to move mountains and I'm going to get there.  I know I am!!!  I have a great support system and weeded out the bad.  I'm ready!  Are you?

Kimberly

You will never "find" time for anything. If you want time, you must make it. - Charles Bruxton

Good afternoon... it's been a while and yes, I know I have a lot to do and this quote fits the "Tude" I'm in today...... well the "Tude" for the week.  :-)

Is it funny how "TOMORROW" never comes?  I mean really... I'm still waiting...and I go to bed thinking I am going to have MORE time and MORE energy and life is just going to be different.  For SOME reason it's not and I just seem to never get ahead in life. 

Let's look at my plate.... I am now coaching for a traveling basketball team (YEAH ME!!!  I'm excited), I will be coaching at the YMCA again, I coach T-Ball, I help my boss with his softball and baseball teams, I have a SPOILED Dog that is VERY high maintenance, I try to have a social life, I try to have a clean apartment, go to the laundry mat once a week, my nephew has baseball games that I TRY to go to, I work a lot, I TRY to sleep, I am a Chamber Ambassador, I'm in Women's Networking, I am joining ABWA (American Business Women's Association) , Um..... I'm getting divorced, and planning my birthday trip.  I think that sums up my week.... but I'm sure I left SOMETHING out... like friends and family and all that.........

But, if I keep putting things off will they ever get done?  Did you notice I had NO exercise in that list of "to do's"?  I did run 2 miles yesterday and by the looks of life, I may have to put off my run until TOMORROW....but will I run tomorrow?  I have a T-Ball game tomorrow..... then Weight watchers on Saturday, so I'm back to step one, WHEN am I going to get my exercise in?  I have to figure out how to balance my busy schedule, I got me into this "mess" I will get me out.  I will get everything done and I will be in bed at a half way decent time!!!!  (I hope).  I don't know how women with kids do this!  I don't have kids, I don't have a boy friend, and my husband is 888 miles away and I'm sure not missing me!  So how do you do it?  I was looking at my calendar for the month and WOW..... when will I have "Kim Time"?  Anyone that knows me knows I love my "Kim Time".  :-)  I get a lot of thinking done and a lot of goals mapped out and organization!  Kind of dangerous I know, but I love it! 

So all in all...what is important to you?  Yes, I love running and I love being active and not being home, but I know to keep me grounded and working my way to my goals I have to find the time to stay home and unwind, I have to find the time to run!  I know there are 24 hours in a day.... It's what WE do with it, are you going to waste it complaining there isn't enough time?  Or are you going to take every minute that GOD gives you and use to to better yourself and this world we all share?  I'm working towards making this world a better and skinnier place...... What are you making time for?

Have a great day!
Kimberly

My Thoughts on "The Climb"

I really do like this song.... now the Miley thing I'm honestly not all for, but when I hear a song that really has some meaning to me and really can push me to do my best it's got to be this song.  I posted the words for you to read now here is my break down of why these WORDS hit me.  Everyone is different this I know, but if you really think about each word I'm sure it can help you through as well. 

 The Climb:
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming (what's your dream? My Bikini is my dream..... someday I will be in one!  I know I will!!!)
But there's a voice inside my head saying (is it a voice or is it people that "love" us telling us we are going to fail..... I'm sure we all have a voice and others in our lives telling us we are going to fail!)
"You'll never reach it" (But I will... just watch me!)

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
(all of us have question if we are doing this for the right reasons, and if we are doing it correctly and if this is really what we want out of life..... keep going!)
But I gotta keep trying (I have to keep trying, I will do this!)
Gotta keep my head held high (I will succeed!)

There's always gonna be another mountain (ALWAYS something else that I have to over come!)
I'm always gonna wanna make it move (I have 2 choices, 1. give up or 2. keep going!  My vote is KEEP MOVING!)
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose (It feels when I fail and get back up and succeed it tends to mean more...and yes I can't win every time!  But I will enjoy success!!!)

Ain't about how fast I get there (it's just about GETTING THERE!)
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (this is what makes life worth it!)

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
(this whole phrase.... The struggles I'm facing the chances I'm taking, sometimes might knock me down, but I'm not breaking!!!  WOW!  That in it's self is amazing!  We all struggle with something.....weight, drugs, emotions..... Life is a struggle sometimes!  Sometimes knock me down?!?!  Um...yeah!  I get knocked down A LOT!  But the battle is getting back up!)
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah (these are the moments that make us who we are and make us stronger!) 
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on (Remember you're loved!  You can get through this!  I promise.....)


'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
(Keep on moving..... keep on climbing... keep the faith!  It's about the climb...... let's keep moving... let's keep the faith and let's make our dreams come true!  WE can do this and I believe together WE WILL do this!!!!!!)

Have a great day everyone!!  I hope this song has motivated you as much as it motivates me! 

Kimberly

My Song....... The Climb

Ok, some people know this is my "motivational song" others....well I guess now you know!  :-)  I'm only going to post this song and I want you to READ it not sing it and think about each and every word.  Tomorrow I will go into this more!  Enjoy and I hope you look at this song in a whole new light!

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Have a great day!
Kimberly

PS.... it was good wasn't it?

Beauty is not so much what you see as what you dream. - Walloon Proverb

What a weekend.... I hope everyone survived the end of the world.  I know I did.... I think.  ;-)  It was a crazy yet I think productive weekend for me.  And I say I think because I didn't get EVERYTHING done that I had on my wish list (Yes I create a wish list of things I want done!)  But anyway... I hope you got a lot done and had a wonderful weekend!  ;-)  I am now back to coaching a traveling basketball team!!!  ;-)  I'm excited and can't wait until Wednesday for open gym so I can meet my girls and see what I have to work with!  :-) 

I am kind of having one of those days where everything that can go wrong is and will!  I didn't get up to run this morning even though I had SOME help to get out of bed therefore I didn't make breakfast and so I'm hungry ALL day long and when I was straighting my hair I was just staring at myself thing is this what I really look like?  I had 2 people this weekend call me skinny.... okay, now I know they were not talk about me.... I look at myself EVERY morning and I don't see skinny.  I don't see "sexy" and I don't see "hot".  yes there are moments where I "think" I am....but those are few and far between.  So this quote hits me as well as gets me to think.  I'm not happy with what I look like nor do I believe many people when they say I'm beautiful.  Yes Beauty in it eye of the beholder.....but SERIOUSLY, they need to get their eyes checked and I say quickly! 

This quote the more I think about it the more it fits, I mean....I'm not happy with where I am at right now in my life.  Yes, I lost POINT two pounds last week for a total of 61.6.....so I'm happy I'm on the losing side, but I'm not happy with my body or "beauty".  My dream though is a smoking HEALTHY body.  I see myself fit and in shape.  I see it no obese...... I see it perfect (yes I know that is the wrong word but really and seriously the only word I can think of right now.....)  What is your dream?  Or are you happy with your "beauty"?  (if you are let's talk, because you might be one of a kind).  We all have SOMETHING we want to change and as you can see mine is weight!  So I am assuming most of you it is the same thing...something that is a struggle for a lot of people.  I swear I woke up this fat one day!  Really I did!!!  So I keep going to sleep hoping and praying I wake up the way I went to sleep...... SKINNY!!!  It's not working needless to say, so I will keep trying and keep plugging away! 

Not to change the subject... but I did the Weight Watcher Walk It day and I was talking to some people.... and when I was out in Maryland we had "Off Scale Victories" that we celebrated before we ever started a meeting.... That is what motivated me.... I got extra claps for doing what I thought was or should be something that I should be doing...well, not everyone has good weeks, and sitting here thinking back to my POINT TWO pounds that I lost.... I had a good week in someone that gained eyes, but mine... I felt I worked harder....but did I?  Nope I would assume NOT!  So this week, my off scale victory is going to be tracking (I Hope!)  What's your off scale victory? 

Kimberly

An obstacle is often a stepping stone. - Prescott

Hello Thursday, it's great to see ya!  ;-)

Today is kind of a busy day for me... by 8am I had ran 3 miles, made and ate breakfast (pancakes, turkey bacon and had some V8 juice) and then did my dishes, vacuumed up all the dog hair.... took my puppy for a walk and by 7am I was in the shower getting ready for a crazy day of work!  So I sit here wondering what to say and how to say it..... but really the quote says it all.  It kind of goes with the quote that I personally hate "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger" or the quote that irks me "God doesn't give us more than we can handle"....well I guess I'm a trusting person because I have A LOT on my shoulders right now (I say that and the song is playing in the background....."Lay it at the cross where Jesus died" hum.... yeah God, I'm listening). 

But anyway think about it.... every obstacle I have encountered has made me who I am, granted at the time of the obstacle I wasn't thinking I would be a better person or that it would make me stronger, but it has and it did.  I have gone through a lot and I am going through a lot.....but with faith and exercise and my friends and family I'm going to get through it and I believe you will too. 

Life doesn't have to be difficult.... Life doesn't have to be hard.  It's what we make it.  What you put into life I truly believe you will get out of it.  So think about that.... If you feel you are going through an "obstacle" laugh it off... this too shall pass and you will look back and say "WOW, I got through that" ..... you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.  Not saying we don't need a day or time where we just CRY and hate the world...... I am on the ledge looking at doing that any day now....but you know, I know I will be strong enough when I'm done to get back on and back on track.  Why?  Because I'm strong, and I believe in what I'm doing.  I have a good support system around me.  I know a year ago I couldn't say that... I had a job that I disliked (well LOVED the job disliked the situation).  My husband (soon to be ex) and I weren't happy, I was FAR away from my family and friends (granted I had ONE GREAT friend in Maryland, and very thankful for her!)  and so I put on the weight, what else was I supposed to do?  Now I have surrounded myself with people that want to see me succeed.  It was hard to get rid of the ones that want me to fail, and I still talk to them and see them, but I don't go out of my way by any means to see them.  I know I am better where I'm at.  I considered these people my obstacles.  Most of my obstacles had 2 legs and we call people!  ;-)  You know who I'm talking about...... we all have these people in our lives.... I think in Weight Watchers they are call "food pushers". 

But I could either be fat and unhappy or healthy and happy!  What do you want to be?  I want to be healthy and happy.....and by golly gee.... I WILL GET THERE! 

I hope you have a wonderful Thursday! 
Kimberly

P.S. I think tomorrow I am going to post words to my "motivational" song........ still figuring if I want to break it out this early.... would LOVE to get more followers before I lose everyone!  ;-)  But it's a good song.......

Whether you think you can or can't, you're right. - Henry Ford

Hello Wednesday!!!  It's all down hill from here?!?  Right?  ;-) 

I got the pleasure of watching the Biggest Loser with my mom, and yes we even ATE while watching, but I cooked a healthy meal and we sat and watched in awe.  Yes, I have lost a lot of weight, but not anything CLOSE to what they have lost!  Sometimes this really irks me.  Those chicks lost OVER 100 pounds in 5 months!  HOLY COW...... I have almost busted my butt to lose 61 in a year and a half, how can this be?  How are they losing more weight than me.... I'm working hard too....aren't I? 

Let's break it down, not saying the show is fake or phony...by all means I'm not..... but is it reality?  Who out there can spend HOURS at the gym and HOURS planning meals and cooking and what not?  I mean really to me personally this show sets me up for failure.  I don't have time or energy to do much when I get off work and SERIOUSLY don't have time to work out for FOUR hours!  I'm lucky to get a good 2 mile run in daily!  So can you imagine what kind of mood I would be in if I got home and worked out for 4 hours and then went about my business?  I wouldn't be in bed until 2 or 3 and up and at 'em again at 5!  Not painting a pretty good picture the more I sit here and think about this!  :-(  Not possible, for me anyway.  But I know I can work out, I know I can give my all in the short amount of time that I have!  You know why I KNOW I can?!?!?  Because if I have the attitude that "I can't" then I won't!  And if you know me you know the word "can't" isn't in the dictionary so it shouldn't be a word!  (Yea, I will wait while you google it!)  ......... ....... .....

Glad to find you back!  ;-)  Why do we jump the gun and say "I can't" when you don't know because you have NEVER tried it?  I mean have you TRIED?  Think about it this way how long did it take you to ride a bike?  If you learned the same day and mastered it, I expect you to email me because we need to talk!  But most of us it took a while!  We all fell, we all got hurt we all FAILED the first time, I'm sure we told our parents "I can't do this" and I'm sure they pushed us to try again or there wouldn't be any bikes in this world.  So what's next?  We got back on and tried until we were successful!  I know I did (because I can ride a bike to this day!  ;-) ) ..... this is the same with working out and anything new we try.  I really LOVED running/walking in the mornings but come one.... who wants to get up at 5am just to work out?  I was on the wagon for a while, then got hurt and fell off (yeah, I'm sure you see a trend...I'm off and on the wagon) now I am SLOWLY getting back to working out in the morning.  For some reason I feel I can push my body to go the extra distance!  Maybe because it's like everyone else.... still SLEEPING at 5am!  ;-)  But not giving up and not saying "can't" has only allowed me to succeed.  It's not going to be easy, and I'm ready for the challenge. 

So are you one of those people that says "I can't" before you even try it?  Think about how many times you say you "can't" do something with out trying it! 

Have a great day!
Kimberly

The surest way not to fail is to determine to succeed.

Happy Tuesday!!!  :-)  Hope your day is going great. 

I sit here and wonder what I'm going to write, what haven't I said what needs to be said.  Then I found this quote and I have MILLIONS of things going through my mind...man I'm tired, I should take my dog to the dog park, I guess I better run tonight, maybe I could get some work done, or clean my place, or go home and relax.  But in reality I'm only setting myself up to fail.  Yeah, all of this needs to get done and at some point I need to find the time to do it, but really is this going to bring me the success that I need?  If I put working out/running on the back burner am I going to do it or am I really going to stick with it?  Well I will give you a little hit...I didn't run last night and I didn't run this morning.  So I am going to guess NOPE!  Right now, I am doing SOOOOO good, why give in or give up now?  I will tell you BECAUSE IT'S THE EASY WAY OUT or the EASY SOLUTION!!  I know there are plenty of things that I can do that will make my life easier or less stressful, but losing weight and being healthy is also a big part of my stress.  I'm sure it's a big part of every ones too!  So why not put that first?  I TRY to go home, let my spoiled Diva out of her cage and then change into my running clothes and then I get my run on.  That way when I'm done I'm DONE!  Sometimes if I get off work in time I still have time to take her to the dog park and then I can make a quick and easy supper.  It really only takes me about 30-45 minutes to get a good run (2-3 miles) in anyway.  I can sacrifice that!  So I can still get SOME things done but I have to make sure they are the important things.  I feel if you don't take the time for YOU and what YOU need then you are pretty much setting yourself up for failure.  I love success just like the next, but really sometimes you have to fail to succeed!  And as you read my blogs, you will know I tend to fail a lot!!  But its when you get up and dust yourself off and keep going is when you will succeed.  ;-)  So let's all get up, dust ourselves off and get to getting! 

What do you want to succeed at this week? 

Have a great day!
Kimberly

"You can change jobs, relationships, friends, & schools, but if it's the same YOU showing up nothing will ever change"-Kirk Franklin.

Good Monday afternoon!!!!  :-)  I hope everyone had a great weekend, mine was very eventful and crazy!  I started my Friday off in the Ambulatory Care with chest pains that I really started having on THURSDAY...yes, I waited to go to the doctor.  I went to my weight watcher meeting and stayed the same...so I'm still ONLY down 61.4 pounds!  :-)  Then I went to a clients birthday party and she told me I was looking "sexy" and "hot" and then informed me there weren't any single guys there!  :-(  Sad but I wasn't there for the single guys....but her "sexy" and "hot" comment made me feel AMAZING because that is how I felt 100%!  So then I go to my mom's friends 50th birthday and they all say how great I look which, you know I do look good!  I'm telling ya!  So I tell a friend I want to meet up and he tells me where he's at, so I show up at the bar and I get IGNORED!  I mean really!?!?  How rude can people be?  Never mind don't answer that, you just have to know this dude!  :-( So thankfully, I also see a friend that I haven't seen since well.... high school/college.  It was her Bachelorette party.  So I got to celebrate with her while I tried to mend my broken heart.  So it lead me to this quote.....

"You can change jobs, relationships, friends, & schools, but if it's the same YOU showing up nothing will ever change." 

You can change jobs..... Yep, we all have done this when times either got hard or we just felt like we weren't needed anymore....., Relationships ......... um... yeah, totally.  I think I go through more boys (and I say this with "LOVE" because some of them I still talk to and are good friends and support) than anyone, I am always "the friend" never the "girl friend".  But I'm a tom boy!  Friends......unfortunately those come and go too.  I lost a best friend I had for 20 years, I miss her, but decisions were made and things got out of hand, life is too short to fight, but look back, how many friends have you/we made through the years and we say "Oh we will NEVER lose contact"?!?!  Yep, I'm GUILTY!  Schools..... I don't know if I am guilty of this one... I only left NIU (Northern Illinois University) after having knee surgery and just not "fitting" in up there.  Other than that, I didn't leave until I got kicked out...well graduated!  :-) 

But the last line is sticking.... "if it's the same YOU showing up NOTHING will ever change" ... Yep, again they are right.  Let's think about this... How many of us are just going through life's motions thinking things will be different tomorrow?  I know I do.  And the saying "tomorrow is a new day"....but is it.  If I get up the same way I got up today attitude and all is it really a different day?  Do we really have that much control over our day, and what we get out of it?  I'm SLOWLY learning "YES WE DO!".  I also believe what you put into your day is what you get out of it.  If you wake up crabby and don't brush it off your day is just going to stink.  If you wake up and someone out there irks you, brush it off!  I know it takes time, I lived in Chicago and DC, I understand RUDE people (not saying everyone is rude out there...but if you lived out there you understand there are a lot of them in those areas!!)  take a couple minutes TO YOURSELF and be mad...but get over it... you are losing precious time being mad at something you either can't help or can't control.  Who knows, maybe the next person you snap at WAS in the same boat you were in and you just ruined their day.... do YOU want to be in charge of the domino effect?  I know I sure don't!  I know I'm not the best at keeping ALL my negative feelings to myself, but I know it's safe for me to say, I'm working on it.  I'm trying to get better at it.  We can't always be positive and upbeat, I'm not asking that.  I just asking YOU have the decision to either keep showing up through life day to day the same way and NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE, or you can make a change and you can live life like God intended you to live it....to it's fullest!

I hope you have a great Monday!
Kimberly

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.

Hello.... hope everyone is having a great week... seems like summer is here already.  Who would have thought? 

Goals and attitudes I think are the 2 things that can either help us or hurt us when we are trying to succeed in our weight loss journey or just anything in life.  I mean think about it... if you get up in the morning in a bad mood doesn't that just ruin your day?  I mean seriously....what are you going to accomplish once some idiot cuts you off on your way to work or to the store.  Or if someone stands you up because they feel they have something better to do then be with you.  I bet your attitude goes south FAST.  I know mine does!  I have NO PATIENCE for any of this so this is a BIG problem of mine.  So why can't we take that bad situation and put it towards some good?  I mean, if we have a bad morning, why not put it to the side and when the time comes to where we can work out or in my case run... let's bring it out then.  I can run all day if I have issues and things that make me mad to think about.  My bad attitudes turn into a mile or two extra on the treadmill well...songs help too!  ;-)  I went to Zumba last night and had an amazing work out when I was on my way home (actually I was thinking about going through a drive up for supper) I heard a song that just made me want to run...so I went home got on my treadmill and ran 2 and a half miles!  I mean this is AFTER an hour of Zumba!!!  I was soooo proud of myself.  But you know it put me in a better mood until I got stood up yet again, but you know what tonight when I get home from bible study I bet you will know where to find me!!!!

Goal, that is problem number 2 for me!  I am a perfectionist... believe me or not, but I am.  I am a fixer and I want things done and I want them done right.  Well that goes for goals too.  I had a goal to be in a bikini for my well, 25th birthday again.  And well I made this goal in January..... 6 months to lose 50 pounds.  How many of you know I just set myself up for failure??  I mean really?!?!?  I even bought the bikini and told EVERYONE I was going to be in it!  Well a month and a few short days and guess what I won't be in.  :-(  Yep.... my beautiful bikini!  So now I set small goals, hoping to reach those.  I don't take into account that my divorce could go south quickly... or moving or life or issues.  I just figured life is a cake walk as it should be and things just "happen" the way I want them.  But I guess that is what makes us who we are.  So I have revisited my goals and I hope and pray I set ones that are obtainable.  I was asked if I would be in a bikini by January when I go on a cruise with my family and you know my response?  "Let me hit this goal first".  I feel if I don't focus on one goal at a time then I am personally setting myself up for failure and when I fail, I FAIL.  I fall off the band wagon like no other and it takes MONTHS to get back on track.  So for me.... it's one small goal at a time.  This goal is 75 pounds by June 18th (This should be the date of my 25th birthday party).  I am at 61.4, so I have some weight to lose, but feel I am totally on track for success!!!  :-)  So please when you set your goals, set them small.... once you reach that set it a little higher.  Together we can make ALL of our dreams come true!!

Have a great day everyone!
Kimberly

The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way!

I hope everyone had a great Mother's day and a wonderful weekend.  Sorry for not staying on track but as always there were some unexpected bumps in the road and it's been a weekend I can't wait to forget. 

But I picked this quote and it fits into my life today because I FINALLY got over a little hump and reached my 60 pounds..... I was between 55-59 for the LONGEST time and now I have lost 61.4 pounds!!!  :-)  So happy!!!  And along this weight loss journey and life journey I have had a lot of disappointment and a lot of let down, but it seems like I just cry it out and pick myself up and move along.  Things have to be better, right?  Well, I like to believe things will.  People say God only gives us what we can handle.  And you know what he does.  But he also gives us people in our lives that help us handle things.  And that is what has helped me get to where I am today. 

My life has taken me for a wild ride not only lately, but the past couple years...... I have been there done that and I think I have all the T-shirts if they haven't made it into the fat box yet.  ;-)  But doesn't this make us who we are today?  Doesn't think make us stronger?  I would like to believe so!  I am such a stronger person that I wonder how/why and where I came from.  This has also given me the strength to figure out in life what is important and what isn't important.

As far as "and how you handle disappointment" goes.... how do we handle disappointment or do we?  I know there are lots of people that I have disappointed and there are people that will never forgive me and deep down, I'm not okay with that.  But everyone in life has to make decisions and only the person that made the decision knows if it is/was the right one.  I believe in my heart the decisions I have made are only for the best...but they are the BEST FOR ME!  Now, I will be making another one in the next couple days that really will be a game changer (I think)..... do I follow my heart or do I follow the people?  I know if I follow my heart it could get broken again, but do I want to live life "what if" or do I want to live like there is no tomorrow?  I guess time will tell... is this TRUE HAPPINESS?  Or is this wishful thinking????  I guess the 5th time might be his charm???  Or maybe he should buy a lottery ticket??? 

Happy Mother's Day again to the mom's!
Kimberly

Give a girl the right pair of shoes and she can conquer the world ~ Marilyn Monroe

Boy is this quote a good one.... I saw this and thought to myself "Self, this is a GREAT quote to explain my '50 pound' shoe story"...... so here it goes. 

I just moved back to Quincy and started with my new job thinking life is grand and I am not going to be stressed anymore and the weight was going to fall off.  Well I went to my Weight Watchers meeting and I GAINED!  I mean really?!?!?  HELLO?!?!  What happened?  Well, it's simple and easy.... I didn't track and I didn't work out and I just didn't do ANYTHING!  Well, I wanted a cute pair of shoes that all the stars are wearing these days.... you know the ones, the ones you put on and instantly you are smoking hot!  Yep, you are smiling so you know what I mean.  I wanted me a pair.  So I figured I was going to get me a pair when I hit 50 pounds lost.  Well, a couple weeks go by and I didn't get it I was like 47 pounds so I ordered them thinking when they came in I could wear them and I would be all happy.... WRONG!  I guess the wagon well feel off and someone I wasn't on the wagon!  I'm out lost doing my own thing and we all know how that goes.  So I get them try them on and they look smoking!  Took a picture and made it be the wall paper on my phone!  That is motivation there right?  Heck.... a week passes, still no sexy shoe wearing.... 3 weeks pass... by now, I'm just putting them back in the box thinking I was sending these sexy things back!  Then... I had a moment.... I got back on track and a month later, I hit 50 pounds and I am all smiles and my leader didn't really understand why until I told her I had these shoes that I can FINALLY wear and my dad was having a dance that I was going to wear them to!  I was on cloud 9!!  So I went out had a great time and again, the wagon wheel broke and I went to Weight Watchers the next week and gained a couple pounds back!  :-(  Good things must come to an end...so I put them back in their box until I got to my 50 pounds yet again!!! 

So people applaud me for the discipline, and some tell me I'm too hard on myself, but really, was I really deserving?  Should I have be able to wear those shoes?  The goal was 50 pounds and then I would spend WAY too much money on a pair of shoes?!?!  I mean, am I too hard on myself?  I say NOPE....How do you reward yourself and then fall off the wagon and still feel you are worthy of this reward?  So, now I can say I wear these heels with pride because I know I worked my tail off for them.  Not only once but TWICE!  It makes wearing them that much more special! 

I tell this story with pride, this story has motivated many people that I talk to.  Maybe because they can relate, or maybe because they need the same push that I needed for that month!  I mean, they were on my desk.... calling my name, I had many special events that I could wear them to, but I wasn't deserving, I would have not worked hard to actually wear them.  Now they are worn with pride! 

What is your story?  What is your motivation?  What are you working hard to accomplish? 

I hope you have a wonderful day!
Kim

PS This is the first time in "THE SHOES"  :-)

Figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it.

Good day everyone!  :-) 

Last night was a great night for me, I went and saw my mom graduate from the Citizen's Police Academy with her friend.  Then I took my diva dog for her walk and was sooo bored (yes I was bored at 8pm at night!) that I got on my treadmill and ran 2 and a half miles.  I felt amazing afterwards....so much so, that I showered read some of my book and went to bed!  :-)  Great life I know...but back to business!

Figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it...... This quote was on a friends Facebook page and it got me thinking about what I want, I am good at asking for what I want.  Actually I think I have it mastered, because if I don't get it I work harder to get it!  :-)  But really, who knows what they want?  Who knows how to ask for it?  I KNOW I WANT to be happy and healthy....but how do we get there?  And is that really what this quote is saying?  There are a lot of things in life that I think I want.... but do I want them because society says this is what we need/want or do I want them because the girl down the street has it?  Or do I really truly want it?   I must say I have a great job, and love every minute of it!  I have some great friends and family....but I don't feel I am there or even close to being satisfied!  I want more out of my life, I feel I can give more; yet I'm not giving more.  I'm not doing more....... Or is that what society wants us to feel like?  Why can't we ever be satisfied with what we have?  Why is it that we always want more, when we don't even know what it is that we really want more of?

I challenge you... FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, not what you THINK you want but what you really and truly want.  Then LEARN to ask for it!  Proven stats is if you someone your goals and have them written down you are more likely to succeed and accomplish those goals, so email a friend that will hold you accountable, email me, or write them down where you will see them EVERY DAY!  You are following me for a reason.... let me help you!  :-)

Here is my list:
1. I want to be healthy
2. I want to be down 75 pounds by my birthday June 25th
3. Run 5 miles by the end of May, at least Once
4. Get caught up in ALL my reading.... :-)

How am I going to accomplish my list?:
1. Stay focused
2. Bust my butt, work out and eat healthy
3. Keep running, I'm bound to get to 5 miles, since I did 4 miles 5 should be easy.... but this will be a Saturday or Sunday project!!  :-) I can do this I have the motivation!! 
4. MAKE TIME FOR ME...and read!  They are good books, I just have to learn to say NO!

What is your list?  What are your goals?  WHAT DO YOU WANT?  How are you either going to ask for it or how are you going to accomplish it? 

Have a wonderful day everyone!
Kim
 

Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. - Jim Rohn

Well... I start something I would have never thought I would start...so where do I begin? 

Many of you know, I'm not a good writer and I am normally all over the place so please bare with me.  :-)

I have found that I motivate more than I know, so that is why I am starting this blog.  I love being me, and sometimes the drama and the excitement motivate me to be a better person.  Everything in my life has happened to me for a reason, and today I think I found that reason. 

I am an open book, and would LOVE to share anything with you, please if you have questions personal or not reach out to me.  I have been through a lot in my life, not saying I know what I am doing on this earth, but I'm hear to listen (or read) and I am here to inspire. 

Starting my blog post for today:

I asked a while back "What is happiness?" and you know NO ONE responded!  Is that because no one knows what it is?  Or is it because people are afraid to answer?  I honestly don't know if I knew what it was.  I thought I found it when I got married, but I think what I found was misery.  We were two total opposite people.  I respect him by all means, he has only been to Iraq 3 times, and he has fought for our country, but we were not "marriage" material.  I was young and he was older.  Not a good combination.  But I learned a lot about myself and the person I want to be and I can only hope he has learned the same.  I got back into dating and the first serious guy I dated....I THOUGHT was happiness.  He brought a smile to my face and life was good.  But then things started to unravel and I find out he is just like the man I filed for a divorce from..... things are going to swell for me.... lie after lie and then I can't even go anywhere with out people apologizing for allowing me to date him and not say anything.  REALLY?  So, that isn't happiness....so what is it?  I think and yes I THINK.... it starts with me.  If I am happy with MYSELF, I bet I will be happy with someone else.  They say, if you aren't happy with yourself can you be happy with anyone?  Well, I don't think so, or I would still be married and loving life..... Women have issues taking time for themselves, and yes I can say this because I don't have kids and I am now living and loving the single life, but seriously.... I have a dog that if anyone knows is WORSE than a child, and I had a husband that was demanding.... so I know I have been there and done that.... I still had issues finding time for ME.   I was the one that held life together... .and yet, I was the one that no one cared about.  So I let myself go and gained over 60 pounds.  Now I fight to get MYSELF back and lose the weight!  I deserve better and I feel other women do to!  I know I am going to have women from all walk of life reading this (or so I hope) and they are going to disagree, but really what's 30 minutes out of your day to do something for yourself?  I bet it would get you one step closer to "HAPPINESS".  Try it!  I know I am finding my happiness, I know I am starting to like me for me! 

I hope you have a wonderful day and I hope I get to hear from you soon!
Kim