My Thoughts on "The Climb"

I really do like this song.... now the Miley thing I'm honestly not all for, but when I hear a song that really has some meaning to me and really can push me to do my best it's got to be this song.  I posted the words for you to read now here is my break down of why these WORDS hit me.  Everyone is different this I know, but if you really think about each word I'm sure it can help you through as well. 

 The Climb:
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming (what's your dream? My Bikini is my dream..... someday I will be in one!  I know I will!!!)
But there's a voice inside my head saying (is it a voice or is it people that "love" us telling us we are going to fail..... I'm sure we all have a voice and others in our lives telling us we are going to fail!)
"You'll never reach it" (But I will... just watch me!)

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
(all of us have question if we are doing this for the right reasons, and if we are doing it correctly and if this is really what we want out of life..... keep going!)
But I gotta keep trying (I have to keep trying, I will do this!)
Gotta keep my head held high (I will succeed!)

There's always gonna be another mountain (ALWAYS something else that I have to over come!)
I'm always gonna wanna make it move (I have 2 choices, 1. give up or 2. keep going!  My vote is KEEP MOVING!)
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose (It feels when I fail and get back up and succeed it tends to mean more...and yes I can't win every time!  But I will enjoy success!!!)

Ain't about how fast I get there (it's just about GETTING THERE!)
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (this is what makes life worth it!)

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking
(this whole phrase.... The struggles I'm facing the chances I'm taking, sometimes might knock me down, but I'm not breaking!!!  WOW!  That in it's self is amazing!  We all struggle with something.....weight, drugs, emotions..... Life is a struggle sometimes!  Sometimes knock me down?!?!  Um...yeah!  I get knocked down A LOT!  But the battle is getting back up!)
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah (these are the moments that make us who we are and make us stronger!) 
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on (Remember you're loved!  You can get through this!  I promise.....)


'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
(Keep on moving..... keep on climbing... keep the faith!  It's about the climb...... let's keep moving... let's keep the faith and let's make our dreams come true!  WE can do this and I believe together WE WILL do this!!!!!!)

Have a great day everyone!!  I hope this song has motivated you as much as it motivates me! 

Kimberly

My Song....... The Climb

Ok, some people know this is my "motivational song" others....well I guess now you know!  :-)  I'm only going to post this song and I want you to READ it not sing it and think about each and every word.  Tomorrow I will go into this more!  Enjoy and I hope you look at this song in a whole new light!

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Have a great day!
Kimberly

PS.... it was good wasn't it?

Beauty is not so much what you see as what you dream. - Walloon Proverb

What a weekend.... I hope everyone survived the end of the world.  I know I did.... I think.  ;-)  It was a crazy yet I think productive weekend for me.  And I say I think because I didn't get EVERYTHING done that I had on my wish list (Yes I create a wish list of things I want done!)  But anyway... I hope you got a lot done and had a wonderful weekend!  ;-)  I am now back to coaching a traveling basketball team!!!  ;-)  I'm excited and can't wait until Wednesday for open gym so I can meet my girls and see what I have to work with!  :-) 

I am kind of having one of those days where everything that can go wrong is and will!  I didn't get up to run this morning even though I had SOME help to get out of bed therefore I didn't make breakfast and so I'm hungry ALL day long and when I was straighting my hair I was just staring at myself thing is this what I really look like?  I had 2 people this weekend call me skinny.... okay, now I know they were not talk about me.... I look at myself EVERY morning and I don't see skinny.  I don't see "sexy" and I don't see "hot".  yes there are moments where I "think" I am....but those are few and far between.  So this quote hits me as well as gets me to think.  I'm not happy with what I look like nor do I believe many people when they say I'm beautiful.  Yes Beauty in it eye of the beholder.....but SERIOUSLY, they need to get their eyes checked and I say quickly! 

This quote the more I think about it the more it fits, I mean....I'm not happy with where I am at right now in my life.  Yes, I lost POINT two pounds last week for a total of 61.6.....so I'm happy I'm on the losing side, but I'm not happy with my body or "beauty".  My dream though is a smoking HEALTHY body.  I see myself fit and in shape.  I see it no obese...... I see it perfect (yes I know that is the wrong word but really and seriously the only word I can think of right now.....)  What is your dream?  Or are you happy with your "beauty"?  (if you are let's talk, because you might be one of a kind).  We all have SOMETHING we want to change and as you can see mine is weight!  So I am assuming most of you it is the same thing...something that is a struggle for a lot of people.  I swear I woke up this fat one day!  Really I did!!!  So I keep going to sleep hoping and praying I wake up the way I went to sleep...... SKINNY!!!  It's not working needless to say, so I will keep trying and keep plugging away! 

Not to change the subject... but I did the Weight Watcher Walk It day and I was talking to some people.... and when I was out in Maryland we had "Off Scale Victories" that we celebrated before we ever started a meeting.... That is what motivated me.... I got extra claps for doing what I thought was or should be something that I should be doing...well, not everyone has good weeks, and sitting here thinking back to my POINT TWO pounds that I lost.... I had a good week in someone that gained eyes, but mine... I felt I worked harder....but did I?  Nope I would assume NOT!  So this week, my off scale victory is going to be tracking (I Hope!)  What's your off scale victory? 

Kimberly

An obstacle is often a stepping stone. - Prescott

Hello Thursday, it's great to see ya!  ;-)

Today is kind of a busy day for me... by 8am I had ran 3 miles, made and ate breakfast (pancakes, turkey bacon and had some V8 juice) and then did my dishes, vacuumed up all the dog hair.... took my puppy for a walk and by 7am I was in the shower getting ready for a crazy day of work!  So I sit here wondering what to say and how to say it..... but really the quote says it all.  It kind of goes with the quote that I personally hate "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger" or the quote that irks me "God doesn't give us more than we can handle"....well I guess I'm a trusting person because I have A LOT on my shoulders right now (I say that and the song is playing in the background....."Lay it at the cross where Jesus died" hum.... yeah God, I'm listening). 

But anyway think about it.... every obstacle I have encountered has made me who I am, granted at the time of the obstacle I wasn't thinking I would be a better person or that it would make me stronger, but it has and it did.  I have gone through a lot and I am going through a lot.....but with faith and exercise and my friends and family I'm going to get through it and I believe you will too. 

Life doesn't have to be difficult.... Life doesn't have to be hard.  It's what we make it.  What you put into life I truly believe you will get out of it.  So think about that.... If you feel you are going through an "obstacle" laugh it off... this too shall pass and you will look back and say "WOW, I got through that" ..... you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.  Not saying we don't need a day or time where we just CRY and hate the world...... I am on the ledge looking at doing that any day now....but you know, I know I will be strong enough when I'm done to get back on and back on track.  Why?  Because I'm strong, and I believe in what I'm doing.  I have a good support system around me.  I know a year ago I couldn't say that... I had a job that I disliked (well LOVED the job disliked the situation).  My husband (soon to be ex) and I weren't happy, I was FAR away from my family and friends (granted I had ONE GREAT friend in Maryland, and very thankful for her!)  and so I put on the weight, what else was I supposed to do?  Now I have surrounded myself with people that want to see me succeed.  It was hard to get rid of the ones that want me to fail, and I still talk to them and see them, but I don't go out of my way by any means to see them.  I know I am better where I'm at.  I considered these people my obstacles.  Most of my obstacles had 2 legs and we call people!  ;-)  You know who I'm talking about...... we all have these people in our lives.... I think in Weight Watchers they are call "food pushers". 

But I could either be fat and unhappy or healthy and happy!  What do you want to be?  I want to be healthy and happy.....and by golly gee.... I WILL GET THERE! 

I hope you have a wonderful Thursday! 
Kimberly

P.S. I think tomorrow I am going to post words to my "motivational" song........ still figuring if I want to break it out this early.... would LOVE to get more followers before I lose everyone!  ;-)  But it's a good song.......

Whether you think you can or can't, you're right. - Henry Ford

Hello Wednesday!!!  It's all down hill from here?!?  Right?  ;-) 

I got the pleasure of watching the Biggest Loser with my mom, and yes we even ATE while watching, but I cooked a healthy meal and we sat and watched in awe.  Yes, I have lost a lot of weight, but not anything CLOSE to what they have lost!  Sometimes this really irks me.  Those chicks lost OVER 100 pounds in 5 months!  HOLY COW...... I have almost busted my butt to lose 61 in a year and a half, how can this be?  How are they losing more weight than me.... I'm working hard too....aren't I? 

Let's break it down, not saying the show is fake or phony...by all means I'm not..... but is it reality?  Who out there can spend HOURS at the gym and HOURS planning meals and cooking and what not?  I mean really to me personally this show sets me up for failure.  I don't have time or energy to do much when I get off work and SERIOUSLY don't have time to work out for FOUR hours!  I'm lucky to get a good 2 mile run in daily!  So can you imagine what kind of mood I would be in if I got home and worked out for 4 hours and then went about my business?  I wouldn't be in bed until 2 or 3 and up and at 'em again at 5!  Not painting a pretty good picture the more I sit here and think about this!  :-(  Not possible, for me anyway.  But I know I can work out, I know I can give my all in the short amount of time that I have!  You know why I KNOW I can?!?!?  Because if I have the attitude that "I can't" then I won't!  And if you know me you know the word "can't" isn't in the dictionary so it shouldn't be a word!  (Yea, I will wait while you google it!)  ......... ....... .....

Glad to find you back!  ;-)  Why do we jump the gun and say "I can't" when you don't know because you have NEVER tried it?  I mean have you TRIED?  Think about it this way how long did it take you to ride a bike?  If you learned the same day and mastered it, I expect you to email me because we need to talk!  But most of us it took a while!  We all fell, we all got hurt we all FAILED the first time, I'm sure we told our parents "I can't do this" and I'm sure they pushed us to try again or there wouldn't be any bikes in this world.  So what's next?  We got back on and tried until we were successful!  I know I did (because I can ride a bike to this day!  ;-) ) ..... this is the same with working out and anything new we try.  I really LOVED running/walking in the mornings but come one.... who wants to get up at 5am just to work out?  I was on the wagon for a while, then got hurt and fell off (yeah, I'm sure you see a trend...I'm off and on the wagon) now I am SLOWLY getting back to working out in the morning.  For some reason I feel I can push my body to go the extra distance!  Maybe because it's like everyone else.... still SLEEPING at 5am!  ;-)  But not giving up and not saying "can't" has only allowed me to succeed.  It's not going to be easy, and I'm ready for the challenge. 

So are you one of those people that says "I can't" before you even try it?  Think about how many times you say you "can't" do something with out trying it! 

Have a great day!
Kimberly

The surest way not to fail is to determine to succeed.

Happy Tuesday!!!  :-)  Hope your day is going great. 

I sit here and wonder what I'm going to write, what haven't I said what needs to be said.  Then I found this quote and I have MILLIONS of things going through my mind...man I'm tired, I should take my dog to the dog park, I guess I better run tonight, maybe I could get some work done, or clean my place, or go home and relax.  But in reality I'm only setting myself up to fail.  Yeah, all of this needs to get done and at some point I need to find the time to do it, but really is this going to bring me the success that I need?  If I put working out/running on the back burner am I going to do it or am I really going to stick with it?  Well I will give you a little hit...I didn't run last night and I didn't run this morning.  So I am going to guess NOPE!  Right now, I am doing SOOOOO good, why give in or give up now?  I will tell you BECAUSE IT'S THE EASY WAY OUT or the EASY SOLUTION!!  I know there are plenty of things that I can do that will make my life easier or less stressful, but losing weight and being healthy is also a big part of my stress.  I'm sure it's a big part of every ones too!  So why not put that first?  I TRY to go home, let my spoiled Diva out of her cage and then change into my running clothes and then I get my run on.  That way when I'm done I'm DONE!  Sometimes if I get off work in time I still have time to take her to the dog park and then I can make a quick and easy supper.  It really only takes me about 30-45 minutes to get a good run (2-3 miles) in anyway.  I can sacrifice that!  So I can still get SOME things done but I have to make sure they are the important things.  I feel if you don't take the time for YOU and what YOU need then you are pretty much setting yourself up for failure.  I love success just like the next, but really sometimes you have to fail to succeed!  And as you read my blogs, you will know I tend to fail a lot!!  But its when you get up and dust yourself off and keep going is when you will succeed.  ;-)  So let's all get up, dust ourselves off and get to getting! 

What do you want to succeed at this week? 

Have a great day!
Kimberly

"You can change jobs, relationships, friends, & schools, but if it's the same YOU showing up nothing will ever change"-Kirk Franklin.

Good Monday afternoon!!!!  :-)  I hope everyone had a great weekend, mine was very eventful and crazy!  I started my Friday off in the Ambulatory Care with chest pains that I really started having on THURSDAY...yes, I waited to go to the doctor.  I went to my weight watcher meeting and stayed the same...so I'm still ONLY down 61.4 pounds!  :-)  Then I went to a clients birthday party and she told me I was looking "sexy" and "hot" and then informed me there weren't any single guys there!  :-(  Sad but I wasn't there for the single guys....but her "sexy" and "hot" comment made me feel AMAZING because that is how I felt 100%!  So then I go to my mom's friends 50th birthday and they all say how great I look which, you know I do look good!  I'm telling ya!  So I tell a friend I want to meet up and he tells me where he's at, so I show up at the bar and I get IGNORED!  I mean really!?!?  How rude can people be?  Never mind don't answer that, you just have to know this dude!  :-( So thankfully, I also see a friend that I haven't seen since well.... high school/college.  It was her Bachelorette party.  So I got to celebrate with her while I tried to mend my broken heart.  So it lead me to this quote.....

"You can change jobs, relationships, friends, & schools, but if it's the same YOU showing up nothing will ever change." 

You can change jobs..... Yep, we all have done this when times either got hard or we just felt like we weren't needed anymore....., Relationships ......... um... yeah, totally.  I think I go through more boys (and I say this with "LOVE" because some of them I still talk to and are good friends and support) than anyone, I am always "the friend" never the "girl friend".  But I'm a tom boy!  Friends......unfortunately those come and go too.  I lost a best friend I had for 20 years, I miss her, but decisions were made and things got out of hand, life is too short to fight, but look back, how many friends have you/we made through the years and we say "Oh we will NEVER lose contact"?!?!  Yep, I'm GUILTY!  Schools..... I don't know if I am guilty of this one... I only left NIU (Northern Illinois University) after having knee surgery and just not "fitting" in up there.  Other than that, I didn't leave until I got kicked out...well graduated!  :-) 

But the last line is sticking.... "if it's the same YOU showing up NOTHING will ever change" ... Yep, again they are right.  Let's think about this... How many of us are just going through life's motions thinking things will be different tomorrow?  I know I do.  And the saying "tomorrow is a new day"....but is it.  If I get up the same way I got up today attitude and all is it really a different day?  Do we really have that much control over our day, and what we get out of it?  I'm SLOWLY learning "YES WE DO!".  I also believe what you put into your day is what you get out of it.  If you wake up crabby and don't brush it off your day is just going to stink.  If you wake up and someone out there irks you, brush it off!  I know it takes time, I lived in Chicago and DC, I understand RUDE people (not saying everyone is rude out there...but if you lived out there you understand there are a lot of them in those areas!!)  take a couple minutes TO YOURSELF and be mad...but get over it... you are losing precious time being mad at something you either can't help or can't control.  Who knows, maybe the next person you snap at WAS in the same boat you were in and you just ruined their day.... do YOU want to be in charge of the domino effect?  I know I sure don't!  I know I'm not the best at keeping ALL my negative feelings to myself, but I know it's safe for me to say, I'm working on it.  I'm trying to get better at it.  We can't always be positive and upbeat, I'm not asking that.  I just asking YOU have the decision to either keep showing up through life day to day the same way and NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE, or you can make a change and you can live life like God intended you to live it....to it's fullest!

I hope you have a great Monday!
Kimberly

Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal; nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude.

Hello.... hope everyone is having a great week... seems like summer is here already.  Who would have thought? 

Goals and attitudes I think are the 2 things that can either help us or hurt us when we are trying to succeed in our weight loss journey or just anything in life.  I mean think about it... if you get up in the morning in a bad mood doesn't that just ruin your day?  I mean seriously....what are you going to accomplish once some idiot cuts you off on your way to work or to the store.  Or if someone stands you up because they feel they have something better to do then be with you.  I bet your attitude goes south FAST.  I know mine does!  I have NO PATIENCE for any of this so this is a BIG problem of mine.  So why can't we take that bad situation and put it towards some good?  I mean, if we have a bad morning, why not put it to the side and when the time comes to where we can work out or in my case run... let's bring it out then.  I can run all day if I have issues and things that make me mad to think about.  My bad attitudes turn into a mile or two extra on the treadmill well...songs help too!  ;-)  I went to Zumba last night and had an amazing work out when I was on my way home (actually I was thinking about going through a drive up for supper) I heard a song that just made me want to run...so I went home got on my treadmill and ran 2 and a half miles!  I mean this is AFTER an hour of Zumba!!!  I was soooo proud of myself.  But you know it put me in a better mood until I got stood up yet again, but you know what tonight when I get home from bible study I bet you will know where to find me!!!!

Goal, that is problem number 2 for me!  I am a perfectionist... believe me or not, but I am.  I am a fixer and I want things done and I want them done right.  Well that goes for goals too.  I had a goal to be in a bikini for my well, 25th birthday again.  And well I made this goal in January..... 6 months to lose 50 pounds.  How many of you know I just set myself up for failure??  I mean really?!?!?  I even bought the bikini and told EVERYONE I was going to be in it!  Well a month and a few short days and guess what I won't be in.  :-(  Yep.... my beautiful bikini!  So now I set small goals, hoping to reach those.  I don't take into account that my divorce could go south quickly... or moving or life or issues.  I just figured life is a cake walk as it should be and things just "happen" the way I want them.  But I guess that is what makes us who we are.  So I have revisited my goals and I hope and pray I set ones that are obtainable.  I was asked if I would be in a bikini by January when I go on a cruise with my family and you know my response?  "Let me hit this goal first".  I feel if I don't focus on one goal at a time then I am personally setting myself up for failure and when I fail, I FAIL.  I fall off the band wagon like no other and it takes MONTHS to get back on track.  So for me.... it's one small goal at a time.  This goal is 75 pounds by June 18th (This should be the date of my 25th birthday party).  I am at 61.4, so I have some weight to lose, but feel I am totally on track for success!!!  :-)  So please when you set your goals, set them small.... once you reach that set it a little higher.  Together we can make ALL of our dreams come true!!

Have a great day everyone!
Kimberly

The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way!

I hope everyone had a great Mother's day and a wonderful weekend.  Sorry for not staying on track but as always there were some unexpected bumps in the road and it's been a weekend I can't wait to forget. 

But I picked this quote and it fits into my life today because I FINALLY got over a little hump and reached my 60 pounds..... I was between 55-59 for the LONGEST time and now I have lost 61.4 pounds!!!  :-)  So happy!!!  And along this weight loss journey and life journey I have had a lot of disappointment and a lot of let down, but it seems like I just cry it out and pick myself up and move along.  Things have to be better, right?  Well, I like to believe things will.  People say God only gives us what we can handle.  And you know what he does.  But he also gives us people in our lives that help us handle things.  And that is what has helped me get to where I am today. 

My life has taken me for a wild ride not only lately, but the past couple years...... I have been there done that and I think I have all the T-shirts if they haven't made it into the fat box yet.  ;-)  But doesn't this make us who we are today?  Doesn't think make us stronger?  I would like to believe so!  I am such a stronger person that I wonder how/why and where I came from.  This has also given me the strength to figure out in life what is important and what isn't important.

As far as "and how you handle disappointment" goes.... how do we handle disappointment or do we?  I know there are lots of people that I have disappointed and there are people that will never forgive me and deep down, I'm not okay with that.  But everyone in life has to make decisions and only the person that made the decision knows if it is/was the right one.  I believe in my heart the decisions I have made are only for the best...but they are the BEST FOR ME!  Now, I will be making another one in the next couple days that really will be a game changer (I think)..... do I follow my heart or do I follow the people?  I know if I follow my heart it could get broken again, but do I want to live life "what if" or do I want to live like there is no tomorrow?  I guess time will tell... is this TRUE HAPPINESS?  Or is this wishful thinking????  I guess the 5th time might be his charm???  Or maybe he should buy a lottery ticket??? 

Happy Mother's Day again to the mom's!
Kimberly

Give a girl the right pair of shoes and she can conquer the world ~ Marilyn Monroe

Boy is this quote a good one.... I saw this and thought to myself "Self, this is a GREAT quote to explain my '50 pound' shoe story"...... so here it goes. 

I just moved back to Quincy and started with my new job thinking life is grand and I am not going to be stressed anymore and the weight was going to fall off.  Well I went to my Weight Watchers meeting and I GAINED!  I mean really?!?!?  HELLO?!?!  What happened?  Well, it's simple and easy.... I didn't track and I didn't work out and I just didn't do ANYTHING!  Well, I wanted a cute pair of shoes that all the stars are wearing these days.... you know the ones, the ones you put on and instantly you are smoking hot!  Yep, you are smiling so you know what I mean.  I wanted me a pair.  So I figured I was going to get me a pair when I hit 50 pounds lost.  Well, a couple weeks go by and I didn't get it I was like 47 pounds so I ordered them thinking when they came in I could wear them and I would be all happy.... WRONG!  I guess the wagon well feel off and someone I wasn't on the wagon!  I'm out lost doing my own thing and we all know how that goes.  So I get them try them on and they look smoking!  Took a picture and made it be the wall paper on my phone!  That is motivation there right?  Heck.... a week passes, still no sexy shoe wearing.... 3 weeks pass... by now, I'm just putting them back in the box thinking I was sending these sexy things back!  Then... I had a moment.... I got back on track and a month later, I hit 50 pounds and I am all smiles and my leader didn't really understand why until I told her I had these shoes that I can FINALLY wear and my dad was having a dance that I was going to wear them to!  I was on cloud 9!!  So I went out had a great time and again, the wagon wheel broke and I went to Weight Watchers the next week and gained a couple pounds back!  :-(  Good things must come to an end...so I put them back in their box until I got to my 50 pounds yet again!!! 

So people applaud me for the discipline, and some tell me I'm too hard on myself, but really, was I really deserving?  Should I have be able to wear those shoes?  The goal was 50 pounds and then I would spend WAY too much money on a pair of shoes?!?!  I mean, am I too hard on myself?  I say NOPE....How do you reward yourself and then fall off the wagon and still feel you are worthy of this reward?  So, now I can say I wear these heels with pride because I know I worked my tail off for them.  Not only once but TWICE!  It makes wearing them that much more special! 

I tell this story with pride, this story has motivated many people that I talk to.  Maybe because they can relate, or maybe because they need the same push that I needed for that month!  I mean, they were on my desk.... calling my name, I had many special events that I could wear them to, but I wasn't deserving, I would have not worked hard to actually wear them.  Now they are worn with pride! 

What is your story?  What is your motivation?  What are you working hard to accomplish? 

I hope you have a wonderful day!
Kim

PS This is the first time in "THE SHOES"  :-)

Figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it.

Good day everyone!  :-) 

Last night was a great night for me, I went and saw my mom graduate from the Citizen's Police Academy with her friend.  Then I took my diva dog for her walk and was sooo bored (yes I was bored at 8pm at night!) that I got on my treadmill and ran 2 and a half miles.  I felt amazing afterwards....so much so, that I showered read some of my book and went to bed!  :-)  Great life I know...but back to business!

Figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it...... This quote was on a friends Facebook page and it got me thinking about what I want, I am good at asking for what I want.  Actually I think I have it mastered, because if I don't get it I work harder to get it!  :-)  But really, who knows what they want?  Who knows how to ask for it?  I KNOW I WANT to be happy and healthy....but how do we get there?  And is that really what this quote is saying?  There are a lot of things in life that I think I want.... but do I want them because society says this is what we need/want or do I want them because the girl down the street has it?  Or do I really truly want it?   I must say I have a great job, and love every minute of it!  I have some great friends and family....but I don't feel I am there or even close to being satisfied!  I want more out of my life, I feel I can give more; yet I'm not giving more.  I'm not doing more....... Or is that what society wants us to feel like?  Why can't we ever be satisfied with what we have?  Why is it that we always want more, when we don't even know what it is that we really want more of?

I challenge you... FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU WANT, not what you THINK you want but what you really and truly want.  Then LEARN to ask for it!  Proven stats is if you someone your goals and have them written down you are more likely to succeed and accomplish those goals, so email a friend that will hold you accountable, email me, or write them down where you will see them EVERY DAY!  You are following me for a reason.... let me help you!  :-)

Here is my list:
1. I want to be healthy
2. I want to be down 75 pounds by my birthday June 25th
3. Run 5 miles by the end of May, at least Once
4. Get caught up in ALL my reading.... :-)

How am I going to accomplish my list?:
1. Stay focused
2. Bust my butt, work out and eat healthy
3. Keep running, I'm bound to get to 5 miles, since I did 4 miles 5 should be easy.... but this will be a Saturday or Sunday project!!  :-) I can do this I have the motivation!! 
4. MAKE TIME FOR ME...and read!  They are good books, I just have to learn to say NO!

What is your list?  What are your goals?  WHAT DO YOU WANT?  How are you either going to ask for it or how are you going to accomplish it? 

Have a wonderful day everyone!
Kim
 

Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present. - Jim Rohn

Well... I start something I would have never thought I would start...so where do I begin? 

Many of you know, I'm not a good writer and I am normally all over the place so please bare with me.  :-)

I have found that I motivate more than I know, so that is why I am starting this blog.  I love being me, and sometimes the drama and the excitement motivate me to be a better person.  Everything in my life has happened to me for a reason, and today I think I found that reason. 

I am an open book, and would LOVE to share anything with you, please if you have questions personal or not reach out to me.  I have been through a lot in my life, not saying I know what I am doing on this earth, but I'm hear to listen (or read) and I am here to inspire. 

Starting my blog post for today:

I asked a while back "What is happiness?" and you know NO ONE responded!  Is that because no one knows what it is?  Or is it because people are afraid to answer?  I honestly don't know if I knew what it was.  I thought I found it when I got married, but I think what I found was misery.  We were two total opposite people.  I respect him by all means, he has only been to Iraq 3 times, and he has fought for our country, but we were not "marriage" material.  I was young and he was older.  Not a good combination.  But I learned a lot about myself and the person I want to be and I can only hope he has learned the same.  I got back into dating and the first serious guy I dated....I THOUGHT was happiness.  He brought a smile to my face and life was good.  But then things started to unravel and I find out he is just like the man I filed for a divorce from..... things are going to swell for me.... lie after lie and then I can't even go anywhere with out people apologizing for allowing me to date him and not say anything.  REALLY?  So, that isn't happiness....so what is it?  I think and yes I THINK.... it starts with me.  If I am happy with MYSELF, I bet I will be happy with someone else.  They say, if you aren't happy with yourself can you be happy with anyone?  Well, I don't think so, or I would still be married and loving life..... Women have issues taking time for themselves, and yes I can say this because I don't have kids and I am now living and loving the single life, but seriously.... I have a dog that if anyone knows is WORSE than a child, and I had a husband that was demanding.... so I know I have been there and done that.... I still had issues finding time for ME.   I was the one that held life together... .and yet, I was the one that no one cared about.  So I let myself go and gained over 60 pounds.  Now I fight to get MYSELF back and lose the weight!  I deserve better and I feel other women do to!  I know I am going to have women from all walk of life reading this (or so I hope) and they are going to disagree, but really what's 30 minutes out of your day to do something for yourself?  I bet it would get you one step closer to "HAPPINESS".  Try it!  I know I am finding my happiness, I know I am starting to like me for me! 

I hope you have a wonderful day and I hope I get to hear from you soon!
Kim