So, it's been a while..... and I feel more lost and alone now than ever. I just got done working out with my cousin (my new accountability partner) and I let my dog out and I'm sitting here trying to figure out which way is up, oh and I'm BBQ'ing dinner at 8pm at night!!! Yep, it's one of those days. But this whole week has been one of those "days". Yesterday was so bad that at 5pm I told the boss I was leaving and would be back at 6:45. I knew I was at my breaking point with BS and "crap" that I had to get out and go work out or I was going to blow up. He didn't believe me...... But there I went. And the first thing the teacher said was "let's clear our mind"..... my gosh... if only I could. So we did our first "hill" (It was a cycleLates class) and I seemed to forget why I was mad.... I seemed to forget why my day was so bad (granted I was pissy from the moment I woke up)..... I finally was where I needed to be! Now mind you if this was last week or the week before I would have just went home and ate my sorrows..... but not yesterday.... nope, I felt my body telling me I needed more than food I needed substance. I needed sweat!!! Man on man... I got off the bike did the Pilates part of the work out and then went to work for TWO hours and felt better about life!!! But I was driving the whole 3 blocks back to my house from work thinking, how did I get so lost? Where did I make the wrong turn? How did I fall off the wagon.... better yet who the hell pushed me off the wagon? I was doing so great, I was on a roll... I was losing weight and doing what needed to be done. How does this happen?
So I think I'm back on the wagon..... I have my accountability partner in place and when I skipped my work out monday she sent me a not so nice email..... and I'm back to eating healthy (for the most part) and I'm back to blogging. I'm hoping all this keeps me on the wagon and to the SOB that pushed me off... SHAME on you!!! Now, let's get this wagon moving in the right direction and moving full steam ahead!!!
